You compromise with life then Life compromises with you.

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You compromise with life then Life compromises with you.

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How did i get to this? Well here is the story.Yesterday I just stepped on a Metal Round peice , I picked it up out of curiosity and it was one medal I got at my school for the good marks i used to earn those days back then 4 years ago when I was in 10th.The image of the medal tarnished under the pressure of dust and other biological elements that inhabit my home threw me into the past , The past which takes me back to A day in my school . 5 Years ago I was in 9th Standard , Our principal of Sacred Heart Convent High School Nasik, Sr Terese had just come to make us up to date with the new teachers and the new subjects and apparently the new hardships we were about to face in the coming year.In SSC when a student gets transferred from 8th to 9th then he is bulleted with new subjects like one Maths 1 and 2 , Science 1 and 2 , History Civics, Economics and Geography, Economics is the new entry there and I think there was Biology Chemistry and Physics But i think that was in 11th Not in 9th But yes she has just arrived and she went on talking about the various books and this and that. Though I was more mesmerized by the beauty of the window outside me paying least attention to her talks, When wanted to end her speah . She just used one line She said Believe me Students You compromise with your studies Life will compromise with you, You have to compromise with a 2nd best college, You have to compromise with this and that,Today As I sit on the plastic chair thinking about her lines I come to realize it is true.

I could have nailed around 85% in 10th and may be get admission to RYK college nasik if it weren't for my indecent love for video games which I used to go Vineeth Pillai's House and play even though we were aware the exams are near we had no fear.I wish I could go back in time like bart Simpson who tells himself when he sees his future that Study when u can. Video games you can play anytime you want but i cant the time has passed by me.I had to compromise there for my studies .Round one Won by the Quote which spits on me and says U SUCK , Again in college 11th and 12th I wasted my time frolicking in internet Chat rooms looking for maidens and what not , 2 years of no studies at all . I barely scraped passed 11th by a writing on my certificate as " PROMOTED" dreaming me among the 1000s of others who were also promoted, I wish I could have got serious that time and studied and get good marks in 12th But no I was a smart ass I had to show the world I could earn So i fell in bad company . I was a Small time petty mobile seller who used to buy cheap mobiles and sell it to the other for some cash in between.This greed for so called money even led me to ditch my seriousness of the Physics subject which was looming around me the next day and I was waiting in line at the Police Station where I was caught for allegedly playing with stolen mobiles.I cried then I cried like a baby asking the Constable to go Leave me I had my exams. He just asked me one thing. If you are so serious about your exams why did u do this? I could do nothing but hear him shout at my ears and Slap me on my face while i was sobbing thinking about my future while he was riddling me with a news that once a case is registered on u U wont get a job or anything.I was not sad about my future but i was sad that How will the news of my arrest sound to my mom who thinks the boy had gone to his friends house to study...I made a compromise with my life , my studies And my career Who torment me day and night by giving me hope which cannot be fulfilled.

I had to settle for a mediocre college called as Rajasthan Vidyapeeth Which had a franchise in nasik.Again a compromise and now as i sit before u with my 240 pound body I am again making a compromise with my own self.

In the coming years my health has been deteriorating like a self made philanthropist who hasn't done any philanthropy. A compromise once made cost me dear.people say Life is beautiful and this and that. And be happy with what you are. You are a creation of God and this and that.I ask myself What have u done ash What have u done for yourself? What have u done for the community? What have u done for the business who feeds you and who gives you the ability to sit today in a Air conditioned room and write these lines? I can only bow my head. I still feel a shame when people say Ashwin earned 50000 In one month. Ashwin earned this. Ashwin earned that. Ashwin did this , Ashwin did that. Sometimes You wish You are never in the limelight . You just come in the office unnoticed by the world U sit down and leave after the work.Why cant we just go unnoticed by anyone. We are free of worldly bondages and other issues which plague the human mind.Sometimes considering my ginarmous structure i ask myself Do I eat to live or Live to eat?

I cant answer the question myself. I often get inspired by the various movies and songs which speak about the various accomplishments done by the characters in the movie. I often wonder Will I be able to do the same. I get charged I get motivated and the next day when the alarm rings at 4 Am asking me to wake up to work...I speak on my behalf and shut the bloody thing off and go back to a lethargic sleep which leaves me impaired. The purpose of this entry is to tell you readers Never compromise in your life, When u do something give it the best shot the best you can.Thats the only way after 20 years when your kid asks you Daddy How much did you score in 12th or 10th You can show ur head in pride and say some good high number.The only problem you will face if you score low is You cant blame the school or college or the time because now u have the weapon in ur hand - Your brain Your talent and its left to you if u want to make it rott the way it is or use it for the goodness of yourself and the goodness of others.Thats all from here. Tata Ciao and Bye Bye